Thought the best place to start this would be, well… at the start, cliché I know but it is the most memorable moment of my sub existence. Have you ever met someone and felt a strange attraction? You know it shouldn’t be as you haven’t met them before and hardly know them, but you are drawn to them. That is what it was like when I was knelt there, and She lifted my chin and looked down into my eyes, and what seemed like a loving, but evil smile came across Her face. Now after a few sessions I’ve heard of other subs believing that they are in love with a Dom/me, but after many discussions I have come to realise that the bond created with a sub and a Dom/me can be close to that of love, as it is a form of relationship with the amount of effort put in, care, how much the Dom/me can read and know the sub, the open trust and communication built up, and the only frame of reference we have are the feelings of love, more times than not in a ‘nilla relationship..

 The warm sinking I had when Ma’am first played me, wanting to sink into Her embrace as She brought my skin alive, and the only contact I got was the pads of Her fingers or Her nails drawing across me, my body pushing back as far as the bonds allowed, aching and arching trying to fulfil that contact, but not succeeding. That feeling was like that of missing a caress when you have been apart. 

I have become more aware now, and know that the chemicals released in the body are similar those released in moments of attraction, and can fuel the same emotions. I find as long as you are aware that this is happening and refrain from declaring something short of your undying love for the Dom/me then things will go well. Many Dom/mes have had to back away for the sub’s own good when this happens. The sub doesn’t understand why, believing the feelings are mutual. 

Oooh! Hahaha, right keep this quiet, I shouldn’t be on here, but I’ve managed to hack in…

I’ve been itching to do this for a while, and now have the chance, well until Ma’am catches me anyway. I thought it would be a great idea to open up the sub perspective on things, give a bit more understanding to those new and established alike, and have some fun along the way. Also I’ll be taking you along the secret journey as I push out bit by bit and explore my switch side <looks round>, She doesn’t know about that either, thinks I’m all sub, hehe.